waw ..this suck sorry to hear that

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lol
my life suck but i smile coz i know other ppl have worse life thin mine ~

Oh god... Did that happened for real??

Suicide is not the answer... It's never going to be... >_< How can people think like that?

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Myth and legend, ride with you!

I will cry with you Sergei.

I am so sorry to hear that!

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When you are sad, or when you happy, there is something you should remember.
And soon this shall pass too...
Quote from a childrens story.

I feel so bad for you
But don't blame yourself, it was their decision, and not in any way your fault


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~ArtSchoolSubRosa bishounen, crossdressing, school uniforms, crime... what else could you possibly want?

I agree with Kay, this sorta stuff devastates people causing them to think it's their fault when its not because the suicidal person talks to them as their last socialization I guess, and then once they die they leave it on someone dear they cared for. This isn't your fault at all, thought its totally alright to feel bad for the loss.
Best wishes in your time of heartbreak

Skeli

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NoS is the way man says "no" to limitation.

Oh, damn.
And there I was all joking around commenting your recent deviations.
I really can't say anything more than I am truly sorry for what you must be feeling now.
But as KayLoveMeow said, it was their decision and you cannot feel guilty because you didn't stop them. My grandfather was like that (and his father before him too, yes there's a long story of suicides in my family, almost like it's hereditary...I too some years ago I really thought for some time about it..) and I never met him. He committed suicide and then 40 years later also my mother, his daughter, was in that condition too. Trust me when I say that only a professional would have been of real help (as it has been for my mother who luckily recovered) but before that the one in person who feels bad have to make a decision: to agree on needing serious help. And that's something that, more than friends, the family should have brought to.
You are not, cannot be and should not be their family. There's a huge line from beeing a friend (a good one, a real one, even the closest one) and a part of the family and it's not good for you nor for the loved one to be mistaken like that.
Blood relations really does matter and that cannot be replaced.
You could have make them feel at ease a little more but without operating in the true insides of which even them didn't know it would be only temporary.
So, it is "good" to be sad of course and feel the loss of one you loved as it should be, but never ever feel guilty. That's not something you could ever change all by yourself.

..hope I was at least comprehensible, I am not so sure about my english but what I briefly mean is: feel and express your sadness, to hold it in is a lot worst than anything else...but don't ever feel guilty, don't ever blame yourself for something like this happened to others, even if they're very close to you, because that was only their decision to let it be and not fight back.

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"...And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming.
And the lamplight o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted---nevermore!"

Hope ya feel better soon.

I've been through this situation a couple times myself. You'd think I'd learn to take their troubles more seriously, but I never do...

Spend some time with family, it always helped for me.

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Philosophy is questions that may never be answered. Religion is answers that may never be questioned.

Have you ever noticed how many atrocities are commited in the name of GOD rather than Satan?

Look man dont blame yourself,the fact is you didnt put those pills in their mouth they did.I dont blame you and I doubt they do either,what you need to do is simply remember them at their best and never forget them.My family in hawaii is big and in the lasts few years weve lost many family members.Ive dealt with my own greif in this way and I hope itll work for you too.Sincerely your friend

Keoni Kisenzai

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\"Upon the world we stand,the bringers of death,the ones whom call themselves,Ravens\"

"The last few seconds after junping the cliff one may ask themselves why?" Im not sure if this is completely correct but I could sworn I heard a quote like this.Ive been in that person's shoes before (lets just say peer pressure was the cause).Fortunately I never jumped off, but I wondered what would happen if I did or who I would speak to last.I thought over it for months as if trying to plan it out.At the last second I turned myself around (age 10).I knew that what I was going to do wouldnt help anyone.It would simply make everyone else worse off.Simply I live for my friends for my dreams.I can only imagine the despair I felt back then.I wish all the best for you buddy.

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\"Upon the world we stand,the bringers of death,the ones whom call themselves,Ravens\"